a rough week.

This past week marks one of my most guilt-filled weeks as a mom. I have had horrible sciatic, lower back, and groin pain and it has brought out the worst in me. My mom made a comment to me that stuck in my head recently, she said, "You are so calm and nice in the morning and then by the time 4:30 PM rolls around you are just over the day." She was so right. 

they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
— Lamentations 3:23 (NASB)

Each morning I wake up decently refreshed and ready to take on a new day. As the day progresses and my patience runs out I get fixated on little things and the day begins to grow sour. My boys are very typical boys. They love to wrestle, fight over toys, make messes, eat constantly, you get the picture here. Well with two boys pretty close in age also comes a lot of discipline, energy, and talking. After nap-time little things can make the afternoons grow long and I often find myself having to ask Calvin and Max forgiveness for not always being the most mom I need to be. My boys do not understand the discomfort I am in and they certainly do not understand why my patience runs low at the end of the day. Thankfully, in our home there is grace. God has shown us in his Word what to do and what to say when we sin against one another and like many young kids, they are quick to forgive and move on. Grace abounds!

As I scroll through my news feed and read about what is happening in Aleppo, Syria I am reminded how small my problems currently are. My kids may destroy their entire bedroom and drop food on the floor after it has just been cleaned but what is going on currently in my home is nothing compared to what the families across the world are facing. I see the faces of moms, dads, and grandparents holding onto their precious kids and see pure terror and hopelessness. During this Christmas season it is easy to be consumed by our to-do lists and making sure everything turns out Pinterest worthy but the realities that millions are facing each day, especially these last few days can change anyone's perspective on what is important.

I am having a rough week and I have needed to ask for a lot of forgiveness. But this week for those innocent in Aleppo has been nothing short of hell. As I asked God today to forgive me for my own selfishness I was convicted with the fact that even though our own personal struggles and rough weeks are hard, having others to pray for and support can help us to look outside of our current situation and see how God can use us for the sake of others. Tonight as a family we will pray for the needs of those who have nothing and are living in a war zone. I want to use these stories of grief and horror to show Calvin and Max how we can use what little or big we have to help others. We donated to The White Helmets and you can too HERE

Oh, how abundant is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you and worked for those who take refuge in you, in the sight of the children of mankind! In the cover of your presence you hide them from the plots of men, you store them in your shelter from the strife of tongues. Blessed be the Lord, for he has wondrously shown his steadfast love to me when I was in a besieged city.
— Psalm 31: 19-21

Whether you have some money to share or not please consider praying for those in Aleppo. Pray for peace, comfort, hope, safety, and health for all those suffering. Consider giving to charities that are bringing aid and relief to refugees.

Photo taken by Unicef  

Photo taken by Unicef